Sad Stoner Therapy

I have been living with mental illness and other chronic illnesses for almost 3 decades. It's okay though. I education thankfully gives me some extra insight into my issues. I'm very self-aware. But I struggle and I struggle h a r d. And I've accepted that I will for the rest of my life. One of my hardest obstacles to overcome is perfectionism. I'm not sure which illness or disorder blessed me with this toxic symptom but I live with it and it debilitates me everyday. Now, perfectionism is pretty often portrayed as a positive trait. It might even be your back-handed answer for the question at every job interview: "what's your biggest weakness?" I used to use it all the time. Every interview. I thought it implied that when I attempted to start a project, I would put my all into it and do the best that I could. But that's not really perfectionism; that's just trying your best. That's the healthy way to do things. 

I believe I was put on this planet to help people overcome hard obstacles so I'm gonna become a psychotherapist. In the meantime, I hope this blog can resonate with someone or help someone. I have a combination of education, work and lived experience with mental health. I have a Bachelor of Arts and Science (BA.Sc) in Psychology and am working on a Master's degree in Counselling Psychology as of May 2020! I used to work in 6 different group homes for people with developmental delays, schizophrenia, mood disorders, and addictions. I also used to work crisis respite and really, as weird as it is to say, I thrive in crisis situations. But, being a worker, I've been able to hear the stigma that some mental health workers still carry. But what about lived experience? I struggle with Bipolar 2, Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Dysthmia (aka Persistent Depressive Disorder), Eating Disorder- Not Otherwise Specified, PTSD, chronic insomnia and chronic migraines (chroni